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Wow, new term. New term means big tests, big tests means no free time! Goodness! I'm exhausted from my musical theater performances. I'm in the pit playing french horn for the musical Thoroughly Modern Millie. Wow hard music. The key signature is either completely sharps or flats, when ever Mear Bear and I don't have to play that's when the key signatures relax and we watch the clarinets blow their lickerish sticks straight to heaven and back. I'm proud to be playing with professionals. It's an amazing opportunity, but another opportunity to have my report card suffer. I'm so upset that this was the worst term for me. I think it was partly the trip to Idaho. I missed a lot while I was gone and it took me forever to catch up again. How frustrating >: (. I don't know if I'll ever impress mum or dad enough to be at least considered to be intelligent enough to be part of the family. I hate being the one that doesn't fit in, and jeez, I"m related to these people. it shouldn't be that freaking difficult. I don't think they deserve my respect. It has been too long I've been yelled at for things I didn't do, or listening to people pointing out the obvious. Pointing out the obvious is one of my number one pet peeves. I cannot withstand another phrase of common sense. Instinct will get anyone further with creativity.

I've been really pissed lately. I don't know how but I'm finding people have shorter and shorter fuses including myself. Is it the weather? Is it an illness? The season? The lack of breakfast? I had conflicts with my best buds, and I never fight with my buds : ( . It makes me want to cry :,(. Life's too short to be worrying about these little things. I need to focus on the bigger picture, but how, when everyone is in my face; can't see past their big egos. If I could wish happiness for the world, would we all really be happy? There would be new levels of happiness. I'm going to just type out a little prayer, if you don't like it, don't read it.

Dear God
I pray that problems in people's lives will be mended. I pray that a new illness of happiness is spread throughout the schools it's been far too gloomy. I pray that the fear in my romance life (which doesn't exist yet) is only a phase, I am so scared. I try to think of you , but it seems nearly impossible in the world we live in. My friends are all having relationship issues, please help them. Thank you for the rain. I love it. Though many people do not. You did not programme us to hate the rain. So I encourage it. It makes me and the trees happy. thanks for the April snow. Irregular weather keeps us on our feet. Yes I did complain about it and I'm sorry. It was very pretty and mild, so i didn't cause much danger. please make this week a great week. I pray that something unexpected yet I crave for appears in my life and my closest, closest friends. Let uncle Kev's wish come true since it's his birthday. Bless me, bless them, bless you, Amen.

Ha ha, that was great. That does a lot on my conscience. Ahhh! That feels good. I don't know about everyone else in the world but there's nothing like a good prayer. : P LOVE IT!

I've been working on my Edward doll for Mear Bear. Edward Cullen from Twilight. I've made one already (I really need to take a picture of him) and I'm making another since the first one turned out so good. He has no arms right now but they're in the process. What he has are curves. A little unfortunate, but it looks better and better as I complete him just like all my dolls I make ; P

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This is seriously Take 27! I haven't been able to finish a stinking blog for the longest time. I really disappointed with my hair at the moment. It's short, and light but I coloured it dark with highlights. Of course, just to my luck, my streaks didn't show up so I was completely dark. The Dark is finally fading and now I want highlights and teal : D. I'm so excited! One of my good friends bought purple and blue hair dye. All I have to do is put in streaks of white blond and dye it! She told me it was turquoise but it is more of a dark teal which should be cool. I wear a lot that will go well with it. I had a lady in the cellphone shop ask if I would cut her hair since I do my hair myself. She seemed like the kind of people I could hang with (just older), I could tell by the dark blue contacts. Sometimes I don't regret having bright blue eyes. But who can resist the cocoa brow iris : D.

Well it's a start to a new semester, and just had my day 2. I already miss my buds from the first semester and I don't know anyone in any of my new classes. I'm still very nervous and sick AGAIN. I've never had a cold like this. I just cough and cough and cough. It's not a dry cough either : P. I think some of my friends are getting it too because they are getting grumpy. Some of them wont answer me on MSN : ( . I'm worried about Gab. She's on her way to Brazil for a year and she wont see us for an entire year. She's sad, nervous and scared and I don't blame her. Sometimes she not in a good mood for a regular conversation. She gets pretty sassy when she is pissed about something.

Agg has decided to move next year (I knitted her a cat hat - It's yellow!) so there goes two of my best friends for next year. Who knows what sort of person Gab will be when she comes back. My cousin when to Mexico and completely changed his behaviour. He became strangely adventurous, in a way I like him more this way, he's more fun to be around.

Well I'm officially 16! I got a graphic tablet for my birthday. I can remake my sloppy title thingy : D. I was so excited about using it that I made a couple of accomplished pieces of art : D.

Speaking of gadgets, I might be getting a blackberry! I've never owned a phone so this may be messy ; ) but I'm sure ONE of my friends knows how to text and change ring tones : P.